There’s still so much in life I’m trying to figure out. To be honest I have no idea where life is going to take me and being a semi control freak, this concept is scary… I frequently question why God has given me passions and desires for things I cant completely comprehend or goals I cant seem to attain in my own power. I guess it’s His fire within us, to push us to live to our fullest potential for His glory but it can get pretty discouraging. I guess I wanted to encourage you, to let you know it’s okay if you aren’t there yet or aren’t even close to being there. For me, I don’t even know what there is, but I guess that’s the beauty of faith – trusting what is unseen and knowing wherever I am in this life, Gods got me.
I went through a period of my faith where I really questioned Gods plan. Walking into faith changed the whole outlook of my future; it made me really question the unknown and where exactly my life was going to take me. As I slowly gave my whole heart to Christ things in my life starting changing including my desires but it gave me this passion and fire to give greater than myself. I wanted to be used and whatever that meant I was in. See the problem with me, or the problem that God is working on in my heart right now is patience. I want everything now and frankly I don’t want to put in the grunt work to get there. I’m fearful of putting time and effort into something and it just not working out. But God tends to remind me that behind every smile and happy face you see, there were burdens and troubles to get there. Theres always a storm before the rainbow. And as I walk closer with Jesus I realize the only way to succeed for his glory is to keep running. To push through the uncertainty, failures, tears, confusion and keep running towards to cross. To fail 100 times in order to succeed once is worth every failure especially if you are in Gods hands. So take the leap of faith and find people who are running too. It might hurt for a bit but that’s why we have Jesus, He makes our hearts resilient. He makes life worth more than the one failed relationship or failed job. He makes our purposes bigger and more fulfilling then the small bumps to get us there.
I wanted to remind you how everything in life serves a purpose. Every person, place and experience you have encountered is God ordained to teach you, mold you and shape you into who you were created to be. This concept trips me up, because I’m ready to be who God wants me to be, but God keeps reminding me of the farmer who waters his crops all year just to produce one batch of good product. Life. Takes. Time. And in order to be in the right place at the right time, He has to do some pretty crazy maneuvers to get you there. So be patient and enjoy life in the mean time. I believe in the desires He puts in our hearts, and if you believe those are from God, trust in his purpose for them.
My friend reminded me the other day that nothing I can do can separate me from God or His plan for my life if I am whole heartily pursuing him. He is a powerful being, and knows our hearts more than we can understand them. I guess I’m trying to say, don’t worry. Don’t worry about your past or what mistakes you’ve made. God knows you and will use every bit of your works for His glory in your life. He wants you to be joyful and happy and the only reason He may hold things back from us is because we really aren’t ready. We want what we want (or at least I know I do) but every time I try to push God pulls which reminds me that it isn’t His best YET. The best is yet to come. The best relationship, friendships, job, family – The most joyous memories of your life have yet to happen so don’t give up. Keep pushing with faith and endurance knowing that he is doing a good work in you.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Romans 8:28
Rest in knowing you are loved and don’t have to live up to anyone’s standards but the ones that God puts in front of you. Live for the audience of one and love always. Xo
“ Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope,”
Romans 5:3-4
“ You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”
Hebrews 10:36
“And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises. “
Hebrews 6: 11-12
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
James 1 2-4